Added: Cinthia Ewen - Date: 09.05.2022 04:39 - Views: 28223 - Clicks: 4978
My father died almost 6 months ago. He was my best friend, my soulmate, my inspiration, my confidant, basically the love of my life. I will never love anyone that way again. He was my other half. We communicated almost every single day in some way although I have regrets about how I handled this, which I may share another time. The point, though, is this:. He meant more to me than life itself. He was my oxygen, my sunshine, my everything.
He was the most remarkable and wonderful human being I have ever known and will ever know. Every day now I have the pain of realising that he won't ever be with me again. I'm writing this post for one reason: to find other people who feel the same or at least similar. Yes, of course he would have wanted me to go on and live my life. But I don't see how I can live a happy life without him. For some people they actually don't. Some people never recover from the loss of a loved one. He wasn't just a "loved one. My love for my father was deeper and more intense than anything else I've ever known.
Life feels completely meaningless without him. I have no interest in starting my own family; no interest in meeting somebody; no interest in connecting with others. Without my father in my life, those things don't mean anything to me. I've never felt love from anyone the way I did from him.
He showered me with warmth and love. That can be from us on this forum, friends and family, or professional support such as that offered by Cruse. Hopefully others will be along here soon to offer further thoughts. I just lost my Father two weeks ago. Its an awful feeling. My Dad was my saftey net, the one I could turn to for advise. We did everthing together, he was my business partner, my best friend, my adviser, and now he's gone.
The plaster has been completely ripped off and now you feel so isolated and alone. You're totally crushed, helpless, and you don't see how you can go another day without him with you. I know, im the same and I feel like I need that advice too. What the hell do we do? I too keep getting told "Your Dad would have wanted you to go on". All i keep thinking to that reply is "Yeah, but with him in my life, not out of it! Its extremly tough but what other option do we have? We can't cease to live too. He brought you into this life when you was a little baby, and he adored you.
He wouldn't want to see child go downhill, its not right. You need to feel like this and not change a thing. All you need to do is keep waking up each day and process these thoughts. You'll feel terrible, you'll feel helpless.
You may be on the floor howling. This is totally normal. Just accept that you've been hit by a freight train and you don't get up from that any time soon. You need to comfort yourself whilst in this pain. I think we'll get better, in fact I know we will.
I am here if you want to chat more. Trust me, I am feeling exactly like you are. You are NOT alone. Thanks for your message. I think the ONLY thing that helps and it doesn't help much is hearing from other people who are also experiencing total devastation.
I'm "only" 35 soon The thought that I'm probably going to have to spend most of my life without my dad is completely intolerable. I'm sorry, but it's just awful. I'll never love anybody like that again. I loved him so much that it hurt. If ever he was in any pain especially psychological my soul would burn.
I have no interest in life without my dad. I need him. I want him. I need his laughter and smile. There are approximately 7 billion people on earth and I have absolutely no interest in any of them. The only person I want to be with is my dad. And I can never have that again. It's appalling that humans should have to experience this sort of pain. It serves no purpose whatsoever. YOu're right about needing to go on. But I don't want to. Not without my dad. Sure, I could find a partner, settle down, start my own family.
But I'll never get to be with my dad again. And he's the only person I want to be with. The suffering I experience at various points each day is beyond description. I've tried counselling - it was basically useless. I know there are well-meaning people out there, but well-meaning doesn't help. Thanks for replying.
I know you're in a bad way, there's no denying that. And I feel like my issues as bad and as fresh as they feel are not on the same level as yours. And you have my deepest sympathy. I dont want you to give up all hope, I dont think you can fall any further down than you already are. You're no doubt at rock-bottom.
But I want to help you up even if its only slightly to begin with. You're suffering severe mental torture, and I feel bad I can't be there in person to share some comforting words in person. I know it sounds strange but have you tried going on long walks on your own? You'd be suprised how much getting outside and walking off stuff can help the body. You are in fight or flight mode. Thats why you're having the implosion feelings and the ones of going insane.
You have to walk or even run it off. Trust me on this. It will slightly ease it off.
You're mind is feeling like its going mad because you are trapped inside it and cant escape it. When you address the fight or flight mode it will help - for sure. Keep posing here, day by day, write everything you're feeling, it is a matter of getting it outside of your mind.
There is no way we can do this quickly, we have to go through this. I felt completely destroyed over the last two days, then as i sit here tonight, its a little better - only a little. But I know im going to crash again tomorrow - or the next day and think i cannot survive. The thing is, I do believe we will get better, we just absolutely cannot see it right now, because were living it and it seems impossible. I need you to keep waking up, day by day, whatever it takes.
When your next sat in your chair, talk to your Dad. Because he is there listening to you. Talk to him how you used to and tell him what your feeling. Believe me you'll hear him back in your mind and it will be exactly what he would say in person. Because you know him so well. You're not alone and im here when you need me friend. Breath and read it again. You'll be ok, You really will, you just dont know you will. I normally dont ever comment on things like this, I lost my daddy in December last year.
He had the all clear from cancer two weeks. We thought things were looking up. The next day we went to visit him and he asked me for help and a few minutes later died in front of me. They weren't sure what caused his death but some had suggested that the cancer had returned. My whole body was in shock and for weeks afterwards my entire body was in pain.Looking to live with my love
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